30. Pain

A Palliative Care Team is a doctor, nurse, and social worker who follow the overall medical case of a patient.  They offer support.  Pain medication adjustment (I currently have no pain beyond the Tylenol level).  Listening.  Direction toward people or programs (we spoke of programs like Death with Dignity and Hospice, and the team directs the right specialists to call me).  They are advocates, a cheer squad.

Yesterday Helen, the nurse in Palliative care, and I were speaking of neuropathy and pain.  I explained my experience.  There is a difference between noting an experience in the body and perceiving it as pain. I looked closely to figure out how to explain it.

We have an incredible, intricate body system.  It sends sensations and messages constantly.  If I tell you to speak to me about what is occurring in your foot, you can focus there.  In my foot, I can feel pressure from where it touches the bar stool.  I can actually hear a thrum sound, weird.  The inside of the heal is cold.

Other people describe neuropathy as pain.  When I described it to Helen, I saw different levels of sensations.  There can be numbness, or tingling.  It can come as energy that is like needles sticking out from the body, going beyond the edges.  To me, that is not pain.

In the example of neuropathy, pain appears when there is an excess or a shock.  If I accidently grab something that is frozen, the body screams in pain.  Or really, the sensations that I can usually interpret, come in such a rapid and abundant way that I am overwhelmed.  Pain.  Pain is physical urgency.  Run from the tiger.  Pull your hand off of that stove!

Slow it down.  Shift the focus.  Or, look deeply into the pain.  All of these move me to awareness and perception.

Author: Michele Plumb Stowell

Michele Stowell was a teacher, a hand holder, and encouraging voice. Born an early Gen Xer, she has lived in Western Washington for the duration. Her children, two spectacular genetic daughters and an uncountable number of marvelous scout and school sons and daughters, shine as her biggest impact and her greatest blessing. Just before her 54th birthday, Michele was diagnosed with stage four cancer. Her writing and art work are expressions of the drama and the joy of living earth bound. On October 24, 2021, Michele was released from her physical body, transported to continue her work on other realms.

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