102 The Stubborn Nature of a Surgical Wound

It heals a centimeter here or a centimeter there. Then it unheals a centimeter here or a centimeter there. What? That can happen? A body can choose to unheal?

A body is a miraculous thing.  Almost three months ago, what the surgeon had hoped would be a laparoscopic procedure turned into a large, open, surgical wound, and an abdominal experience.

In the beginning, there were an incredible number of stitches.   Within two weeks, the body had closed the tissue and the skin to leave just a couple of small openings.  Another two weeks, and the belly button was healed.  One left.  Miraculous.

And that one wound, the one that is left, is entirely stubborn and unyielding.  It heals a centimeter here or a centimeter there.  Then it unheals a centimeter here or a centimeter there.  What?  That can happen?  A body can choose to unheal?

It’s about depth.  What am I missing?  Protein.  30 grams of protein every two hours, a lot of weight gain with that, and I’m definitely not good at it.  Water.  Apparently, lots of water is required.  Exercise.  Even though strenuous exercise is totally out of the question, lots of walking is highly encouraged to keep the blood flow at work.  

The wound is still in a dance.  Back and forth.  

It’s about depth.  What am I missing?  This entire experience is about depth.  It is about the dance, back and forth.  Walking the line, experiencing the idiosyncrasies of the relationship between life and Eternality.  There is something that I am missing.

Or… maybe I am whole… even with a hole.

Author: Michele Plumb Stowell

Michele Stowell was a teacher, a hand holder, and encouraging voice. Born an early Gen Xer, she has lived in Western Washington for the duration. Her children, two spectacular genetic daughters and an uncountable number of marvelous scout and school sons and daughters, shine as her biggest impact and her greatest blessing. Just before her 54th birthday, Michele was diagnosed with stage four cancer. Her writing and art work are expressions of the drama and the joy of living earth bound. On October 24, 2021, Michele was released from her physical body, transported to continue her work on other realms.

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