193 Eleven Days is Not Enough

And so on day twelve of the eleven day retreat, we Amplified.  The picture is of a flower stem, with the flower as shooting sun rays of yellows and oranges. 

photography of yellow hibiscus under sunlight
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I can feel a real difference in my inner perception between the first day and this last day.  What I was needing was naturally there all along.  But that is always the case, right?  What we seek is always closer to us than breathing, nearer than hands and feet.  We just perceive that it is not.

My favorite model of this is the human interest in partnership, usually in marriage material partnership. It is human design.  We are not cats.  Cats usually don’t give a long term lick.  Their dedication is self centered.  Every feline action toward a human is about reciprocation.  What can a cat get out of you?  Are you worthy?  Do you fulfill the cat’s ultimate goals and missions?

Mic owned a cat named Chicane, maybe the best name on the planet for a cat with a kinked tail. Over time, Chicane wanted something different. Mic was no longer a viable candidate, so the cat picked a new one.  It moved down the block.  Of course, there is no legal divorce paperwork, and Mic could have forced the issue if the cat cooperated long enough to be caught, but who wants to capture that type of negative energy, especially when cats can get unruly and destructive?

So people seek people, almost mimicking capturing a Chicane.  I’m going to cut to the chase.  The best way to find a soul mate is to be at One with your soul.  The mate part is already there.  It just isn’t in the form of the Disney movie, the romantic comedy.  People who have long term partners do not have a Disney version either.  Humanity doesn’t work like that.  Partnerships are for growth, and growth is not pretty, not easy, and not very romantic as a whole. 

If we find ourselves in the category of seeker, it would be better to leap in to the world of reflection.  “I want someone to appreciate me.”  You probably have that.  Look for it in those around you.  Focus.  Appreciate it.  AMPLIFY.  “I want to be loved unconditionally.”  Hmm.  Not a human trait normally.  But you might find it in a really loving friend that doesn’t have to live with you. Or a dog.  Or God. The sunrise, the heartbeat, that stuff.  Again, focus, appreciate, amplify. “I want…”  

Honestly, really?  It doesn’t matter what is on the list.  You either have it or could have it with some minimal effort (touch was coming to mind, and a massage might be the answer if you aren’t looking for a hook up).  Fill your own gaps.  When we get the perception to align with the goal, then a partner either crashes into physical universe, or you find out you were really happy alone all along.

So for me to align with Emerging and Grace, the big picture was seeing that those qualities were there, crying out for attention.  They are a piece of my soul, a type of soul mate, dormant, or slightly ignored.  Perhaps not ignored, but needing to grow to higher heights.  Twelve days was not enough.  But it was a start.  And behind that seeking is a whole landslide of possibilities, qualities that want to speak to me, speak into me, speak through me.  And I’m committing to them.  

I hope if you have been following the retreat philosophy, you can also find something inside that is calling to you, that will move you to higher heights, something that requires a resolution that comes long before New Year’s and lasts a lot longer than the gym equipment.  Happy moments.  Happy amplification.

Author: Michele Plumb Stowell

Michele Stowell was a teacher, a hand holder, and encouraging voice. Born an early Gen Xer, she has lived in Western Washington for the duration. Her children, two spectacular genetic daughters and an uncountable number of marvelous scout and school sons and daughters, shine as her biggest impact and her greatest blessing. Just before her 54th birthday, Michele was diagnosed with stage four cancer. Her writing and art work are expressions of the drama and the joy of living earth bound. On October 24, 2021, Michele was released from her physical body, transported to continue her work on other realms.

2 thoughts on “193 Eleven Days is Not Enough”

  1. I hate to correct, must be looking for someone to appreciate my cat name selections. Chicane did have a bent tail, Im not sure what happened to that cat. It was snoop-cat that was looking for something more than I had for her, I think I was getting used to that.


  2. Oh wow, thanks for correcting that! We wouldn’t want the cat spirits to rebel and haunt me. That dang Snoop Cat.

    You are sooooo right on the “people looking for more.” People, and cats, are looking outside of themselves for something they should turn within to find. But we all do it. The more frustrated and angry we get with the outside world, the louder the Divine is trying to be.

    Headed ’round the Chicane for another crash and burn… that’s what is happening to most. Love you!


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